I’m only truly myself when I watch cartoons. And despite what you might think, like : “Oh well, that’s not that bad, i have a cousin that thinks squirells are aliens and…” blah blah blah, BELIEVE ME, coming from an 18 year old, something like that isn’t just bad, it’s HIDEOUS. I don’t understand why I feel this way. It’s just that, whenever I’m out with my friends, I’m someone else. Someone obnoxious and stupid, and honestly that is NOT who I am when no one’s around. I feel like my so-called friends are sucking the life out of me. I’ve always dreamed on a crazy and fun life just like in my favourite cartoons,and as I grow up and get closer to adulthood day by day, I realize it’s never gonna happen. I’m never gonna have a chance to infiltrate Zim’s secret base with Dib and save the unsuspecting humanity. I’m never gonna have superpowers like the Powerpuff girls. I’m never gonna be able to pull Bugs Bunny’s insane tricks and troll someone to insanity and then expect them to talk to me again instead of going around saying I’m a weirdo.
I just don’t wanna grow up. Ever.
That’s all.
I wanna stay innocent,I still wanna believe that there are monsters under the bed, that fairies and unicorns and dragons and vampires and zombies are real, and that aliens walk among us! Our whole society is based on one thing and one thing only : S**. I find it disgusting and perverted. I want to run away and never come back! I want to die, all in hopes that i’ll be reicarnated in another galaxy, in another dimension, where the magic still exists. I don’t want to live like the rest of you. You can have your drunk nights of inproper behaviour, your sperm-thirsty b***** and your perverted douchbags. All I wanna do is FLY AWAY!~