by no means was that my first collapse but about maybe my 3rd and each time my mind and life chances dramatically and I forget people from my past. as a child bugsy found me lying on the floor after we moved house. I had gotten an electric shock a few months later and everything seemed surreal.
all I literally could remember is the s***** abuse and that being out of control but other memories have come back to me.
all I care about is getting a nice guy and rebuilding my life and career dreams.
and I am sick of bowie and ken and those old guys on that navy ship harassing me, because I am not interested in old men. I only want a young guy who will treat me right.
I don’t need to be fucked with by old men who are full of crap again.
I am looking for mr perfect!!!! like the young actors I like.
those doctors look like some French b******!!! and I got sick of this doctor flirting with me who was a surgeon. I am sick of that s***, as much as I admire their work.
I hope you understand. I want to find a hot young guy and love him for him, if he is a lawyer, doctor or actor or teacher.
I am still learning pharmacy stuff and want to go back to university. someone is messing with my education and I am getting sick of it because I need to have that to make friends and income and to find young guys who will take me out. I want to go out with someone as young and hot as ben or david. I am not interested in anyone else right now. I want those sort of guys to ask me out for dates. that is what I have wanted and William didn’t want to know me much.
I am getting sick of missing out on the nice hot young guys and being expected to be around old men. I have absolutely had enough of it.
