When I was younger I used to get so confused about both my gender identity and my s***** orientation. While I am bisexual with a slight preference for women, I have some strongly homosexual desires and urges. A little bit of experimenting along th3 way, but it is a definite bisexuality, not a fantasy or curiousity. Some years ago I went to a religous leader for counseling/help and guidance, and big surprise, I ended up on my knees in front of him. I did not feel dirty or ashamed or taken advantage of; to be honest it felt like one of the most sane “right” homosexual experiences I have had. It was not a one time thing either. I knelt for him a number of times. I know it sounds like it was abusive or taking advantage of me, but it was genuinely not.
