im extremely addicted to the internet and video games and s*** and i cant stop it,. i dont know what to do ive literally considered comitting suicide because im super super in love with this one fictional character (ill call him “K”). everytime i see him my heart like skips a beat aasfsfhgdgs hes so f****** cute i cant stand it i love him more than anything in the world but he doesnt exist kjeaflks which makes me angry and i feel super gross about it. i love K so f****** much i wanna die. the highlight of my day is when i get to spend hours on the computer playing games or watching anime or admiring K., i do have friends but a lot of them are emotionally unstable, abusive, or im too scared to talk to them because i canNOT let them see who i am. so ive kind of just built up this s***** persona so they wont try to pry into my feelings bjfbsjhj which s**** because they all hate me but i cant tell them the truth cuz they will think im lying again. anyways i dont know what to do cuz ive basically turned into a super ugly loser who spends her whole day indoors… i would love to go outside and explore and s*** but my parents wont let me without supervision + i dont wanna be away from the computer… i need to be around K. If K were at least real then i could just hang out with him and eveyrhting would be fine but hes not real and its so f****** painful. i want him to be real more than anything.