my health anxiety is getting out of hand. i think every little thing is going to kill me. i tried to force myself to vomit tonight because i ate a piece of food i dropped on the floor without thinking, out of fear of it somehow being contaminated with god knows what. thankfully i couldn’t manage to do anything but make myself gag, at least.
i hate feeling like this, though. i hate overreacting in the moment and feeling scared over f****** nothing, then hating myself for being an absolute dumbshit later.
