I have a huge crush on a married man and I have a boyfriend of 11 years. I’ve never felt this way towards anyone. I know it’s just a crush but I’ve been crushing on him for over a year now. I’m not sure how to get over it.

So background, my boyfriend and I have known each other since we were kids. He’s my first and only boyfriend i have ever had. He’s wonderful.

This crush of mine has been married for almost 3 years and from what I know is that he met her onine probably through video games. He’s young (27years old). My co workers have said that it seemed all of a sudden that he got married. He’s from Canada and his wife is from USA. and they have said his sister thought it was a stupid idea And the mom just hopes and wants him to be happy. It seems as though it was a rush relationship and marriage. So I heard that she came to Canada so they can get married and then within their 2nd marriage he flew down to USA for the first time. I don’t know why I’m so fascinated by his life.

It also doesn’t help that he seems to be interest in me too or maybe I’m just over thinking. He is a huge introvert and he was my supervisor until he switched over to a different area so now I hardly see him. I know that he is extremely shy around girls and that’s what all my coworkers say. But I noticed that when he’s around me he will literally avoid me. If he sees me walking towards him he will stop walking and pretend to look around all confused or quickly go on his cellphone to avoid a conversation. I once saw him talking to my leadhand and as soon as I was working around him he noticed me and was to shy to walk around me so he hid behind some tall boxes. I felt bad so I just pretend to go get something and as soon as I left I saw him quickly walking pass my area. Also, when we’re in a group meeting or just everyone in the same area he will turn his body away from me. A few times I would show up in a group and I literally see him turn his back to me. I caught him looking at me and when I noticed he quickly looked away. It was so obvious. I once spoke about how I enjoy playing video games and he quickly added that his wife loves them too. That was the first time he’s ever mentioned his wife over a year of working with him. There is so much of other little things he has done towards me but I won’t write it all.

Maybe I’m over thinking. Don’t get me wrong I love my boyfriend and it doesn’t help that this other guy is just so adorable and cute. Maybe I’m crazy and over thinking way to much. Just hoping that writing this confession will help me get over him. But one thing always lingers in my mind is “does he like me too and is in the same boat as me?”