I have come to the realization that most of life is cyclic and having down times are natural to balance the high times in life. I get impatient and angry and I have good and bad days. I think its best you don’t see everyone as a threat and even if they are going after the same thing as you are, if you wait in turn you get a go like everyone else or something better comes along.
my beautiful pre-occupation and distraction!
a lot of people think a job or a marriage or baby or new car or house or holiday or promotion etc will give them happiness but infact the contentment is already within them and they just have failed to tap into that energy yet. most times the things we think we want don’t give us what we are missing inside. with everything come big worries.
I thank the lord that I do not have a crying baby to wake me all hours of the night. I thank the lord for all the nights and days I stayed in and had no fun with friends. I just avoided a whole heap of trouble anyway. owning anything is as much a burden you worry then you will lose it and that is the same with marriage as well and everything else.
focusing on before and after states of mind and feeling can be a gaze into our needs but by the same token we all we are now and all we have is all we really need. as unkind as it might be.
I am 42 this year never been married and never had a serious love interest and have experienced d******** that was horrible and vial and abuse and loss of education and health at times but I have my family and my cats.
I have missed out on holidays and making money and ego and I know why the road is less traveled but I REALLY COULDN’T GIVE A F*** ANYWAY for what I lost! something better may happen to me who knows.
