I’m posting this because I really don’t know what to do anymore. I’m a man. I was born as a female and I always felt like something was wrong with me but I didn’t know what it was until some years ago. It was hard to accept myself and learn to live my life knowing I’m a man on the inside but not being able to express it on the outside. It’s still hard and something that bothers me everyday and affects both my mental health and my social life. I try not to think that much about it though because I like to think someday I will transition and it all will be over and won’t bother me anymore. I do hope that day comes but, when I think about it realistically, I know it’s impossible. I don’t want to lose my family, and I know there’s no way for them to accept this. Sometimes I just tell myself that in order to keep them the only thing I can do is to force myself to live as a woman but I don’t know if I’ll be able to. I don’t know how much more time can I stand it. The more I think about it, the more I realize there’s no solution other than killing myself because there’s no possible way for me to be happy and live the life I’m supposed to while keeping my family and not hurting them. I don’t know what to do.
(Sorry if there’s any mistakes, English isn’t my first language)