I have fucked up my own life. I’m the shittiest person anyone will ever know, I have fucked up the relationships with all my family members including my parents. I attempted suicide last winter and am a frequent self harmer, two things I’ve never told anyone, except for someone I thought [decently] cared, they told me how I was selfish, stupid [which I get 100%, self harm is stupid] told me about how I’ve fucked everything up in my life already, and how much they loathed me. My parents think I hate them, The only reason I came out so early was because my dad knew I was hiding something, he stood on the stairs screaming how I didn’t trust him and kept stuff from him. I have maybe 2 solid friendships with people that I don’t even think like me, I want a relationship with my parents but constantly push them away, I wallow in self pity and I hate myself for it. I feel it’s too late to change myself, I’m a 15 year old demonic b****, I wanted to act as a career, that’s NEVER going to happen (I’m ugly as F U C K). I wish there was a way to go missing, run away from the life I’m living, never have to think about the life I led before because I hate everything about it. I guess I could just die, as they say “If you fail, try, try again.”