haha your so funny. no i didn’t lock myself out again. but here’s your update:

so for the past couple of weeks ive been feeling really down. and old thoughts are returning that i want so badly to not return. they are all negative and directed towards myself. and it was pretty bad last night with the thoughts. i thought i was actually going to cry in the middle of work. but the stupid voice didn’t stop telling me all these things. but anyway, i got asked if i was okay by 2 good friends of mine. and when i went in the back he saw me and asked if i was okay, i hesitantly shook my head no and walked away. when i had to go back there again, he said your sure your not okay? and i basically gave him a brief rundown that “old thoughts are returning and i don’t want them too” i felt like he would listen and that he would care. he did listen and hopefully he cared. but he said some thing that is very relatable with how i was feeling and told me that if i need anyone to talk to i can go to the managers or him. fast forward 20-30 minutes, i went in the back again and called his name and just said ‘thank you’ and he said your welcome, anytime. he just made me feel better that night, well, last night. and i know it has nothing to do with me freaking out or locking myself out, but what he did was sweet.

oh and he also called me good girl again, no big deal