I drank last week after about a year and a half of sobriety. I don’t feel bad that I did it, I feel bad that I’m lying to everyone every time I step into a meeting and say my sobriety date. My parents go to the same meetings I do, I’ve grown up around all these people, known them my whole life, and if I tell the truth, they’ll be so disappointed. And because I’m going to continue to lie, eventually they’ll either find out or I’ll leave completely, and then they’ll be more disappointed. I want to just live my life and make my mistakes and be an adult, and I feel like I’ll always be a child. I feel bad that I’m not the poster child that they want me to be.