I feel like a complete a****** all the time. I’m dealing with depression and I see how it’s effecting my family. I am irritable and tired and impatient. Even my sweet little preschooler is more kind and patient than me at times. I hate who depression makes me, but I don’t feel like I can go back on medication. I cry at night after a long day with them, looking back and seeing how I wasn’t the person I wanted to be.