i don’t get what is wrong with me. i think i have a phobia of bugs, but my sister says that you only have a phobia if it takes over your daily life and you can’t go outside with a phobia of bugs because your too afraid. that’s not me though. i can go outside, im just so terrified of bugs touching me. when i was little i used to pick up rollypollies and worms and i would catch lightning bugs at night time. now, im so scared of lightning bugs and even butterfly’s and ladybugs scare me so much. just the thought of them being on me and crawling on me sends me into a fit of anxiety. ive been sleeping either in my little brothers room or the living room for the past 2-3 weeks because a spider laid an egg in my room and i keep finding more and more spiders to kill and im so scared to just sleep there. i used to only sleep in my brothers room, but the other night i killed 2 spiders all in one night while going down there to sleep. now currently im in the living room on a chair because im too scared to sleep on the couch because i saw a water bug under the cushion. and im even terrified while typing this because there is this big bug that flies and it’s wings make this terrifying noise and every time i get the broom the try to kill it, i lose it. and i don’t know where it is right now. i already know i won’t be able to sleep unless i put myself under my blanket fully and make sure there isn’t any holes it can get through in. what is wrong with me? my dad and now my mom today say i need to go talk to somebody. and now, guys the bug, i just found it and i made sure to keep my eye on it and i knocked it off the curtain with the broom and grabbed my dads shoe and slammed it on it hard, and it didn’t even make a dent. it was so big guys. and it crawled towards the wall and go sorta in the crack like going up the and it was at a bad angle to where i had to use the very point of the shoe to get it and i just stared at the bug for a good solid 10 minutes before i closed my eyes and did it. and then repeating to hit it. i put something heavy over it but im so scared still. what if it gets on me? see this is me overthinking it, and i know it too. is this a phobia of bugs? my hands are sorta shaking while typing this right now. im going to try and go to sleep now, night/morning/afternoon. x ~M.G.