why was I let down by this dutch therapist. if only she had listened none of this would have happened. I asked her to listen about the abuse. 7 years straight she would not listen and all she did was condemn me. I paid her to accuse me, condemn me and abuse me.

all she had to do was listen. 7 years of torture straight. like a gun firing in your head non stop condemning is all I got.

now hatred is the only thing that keeps me going.

she was part of a network of abuse for some reason

and I am supposed to believe I am always to blame.

of course. I was always to blame like the blaming tree. when you have no one else blame blame me! blame blame blame!

NOW I CAN BLAME!