i want to be happy.i want to love. i have falling in love,where its supposed to be easy yet it didnt.i keep on loving him.i didnt wish to stop.because i am scared. i am scared the hole in my heart it may leave if i let him go.yet,he is married.and i ..couldnt let him moved out from my heart.i am not sure if i still love hm yet the hole that i was afraid of that i didnt allow mmyslef to be free to love other.i want to love him,even i cant have him yet i didnt want to ended alone coz he will not love me.