I was doing good triwd to fight of my fleshly desires i had i w******** about lesbians i am a girl who sruggles with unwanted homo feelings. Im wierd i thought and masturbated about my stepmom s******* in anger.I was molested by people and i molested people before as a child not an adult i know its wrong i humped almost everything when i was a little girl teddy bears cats doors baby and anything that made me get off i was mental because of physical abuse and s***** too.i am sad i got mad at My loving Heavenly Father because i was trying 2 live right and all kinds of hurtful things happened i said in a crazed moment of bitterness God i forgive u i know your able but u didnt.i lost it.im suprised God did nit just bolt me sraight down to hells fire instead He loved me comforted me and looked pass my deranged mind.i forgive anybody hurt me even if they aint say sorry.i will conquer these addictions and get pass the guilt into a new mind .Thank you God pull down all strong holds.i forgive myself i was offended at what Jesus said before. I withdrew from my college
Online course.i need grace from God not to let my finicial aid be affected.i need weightloss.i gained weight i now weigh 360lbs.i humble myself.i need help .i wad molested and i molested family when i was a little girl i was introduced o s** early as kindergarten. I have spent money and wasted it on vanity and greed. I have put myself under a curse o want broken. I have murdered in my thoughts blasphemed holy things in rage .had a foul mouth entertained angels and demons.i am psycho i have caused others to sin by accusing them of things they said they aint do.i have placed myself on a throne and need to be dethroned .i dont know better than God even if i dont understand God is always right.i caint believe how jealous and angry i have been before. I abandoned my children ahused them cause i was abused in all kninds of waysbecause they turned against me i am a sinner whose hurting inside i commited the 7 deadly sins im sure. I have stolen from stores before. I have been a prostitute to take care if my kids and me. I hurt and want to live a life under grace pleasing to God.forgive me and i forgive myself. I have cursed people i know and dont know purposely and not knowing also.i idolized things and peiple . I have been guilty of not putting God 1st. Yet the kindness goodness and the excellebt mibd of God has looked past my sins
