I found my aunty mary to be animalistic in her active hatred of me when I was a child. she always looked at me in anger from a young age. she did not like me at all, but she liked my sister and used to call my sister my name when certain people were around. this made me feel invisible and unimportant. I just never stomached mary as a person. I never found her kind or caring towards me, nor her children. she caused me server mental abuse within constantly playing games on me in 1975. I don’t know why she was doing it other then I suspect that her father was not my mothers (her sisters father) and I have wondered if my sister is the child of our family father. there appeared to be a helper nature between mary and my sister rose-mary, a cruelty in every intention. selfishness and conceit, lack of ability to be fair or nice. and someone has been constantly swaping my dreams with my sister. like it was my idea to donate my eggs to a sperm bank seeing young men find me so unattractive, they find my sister attractive but not me. so who went and did that and donated my sisters eggs instead of mine. given my sister has been married three times and has a child, while I have never been married and I have never had a baby.

I don’t understand it. but I am sick to death of it.