I was a shy child and teen that often hid any abuse and would not admit to people abusing me out of fear and pride. I was s******* abused by over 4 people. and I a virgin til I was 29 and ashamed to be that but I was not attractive. I found m*********** the best relief and I was overcome by the demands of my sister forcing me to be with her weird guys or she would demand I not see others that I liked who were studying with me. I still don’t understand why?