I’m thirteen, turning fourteen. I haven’t told anyone about this… only two people, two close friends.
For about a year I’ve been having what I believe to be hallucinations. A tall shadowy/transparent figure with ‘666’ written all over it, with three eyes. It follows me everywhere. To school, in the gym. When in my room it sits or it’s legs disappear, but when standing up in somewhere with a high ceiling, or outside it’s about 11’ feet tall.
Over the years I’ve had a habit of talking to myself. Like when I was little, (and sometimes even now) I reenact fictional characters having conversations with each other. But my thoughts have become uncontrollable, sometimes even audible. My thoughts are constantly overrun by two voices, Abbot and Terra. They’re like your conscious, but uncontrollable- as if they’re real people. Terra constantly calls me names, ‘crybaby’, ‘retard’, or ‘dumbass’. She says that I’m stupid when I cry, and tells me to stop. She tells me that ‘killer’ or the tall figure is going to kill my family. Abbot is the complete opposite, he tells me to cry if I need to, and that Killer won’t hurt anyone. Abbot and Terra argue a lot… Abbot says Terra is abusive, and that I need to get away from my mother and get to my biological dad. On top of all this, my friends are victims of my hallucinations too. One friend constantly tells me “there’s arsenic in your drink by the way.” Another claims he’ll tell everyone, another says I’m clueless of everything. I’m constantly paranoid of my food being poisoned, or that I’m being watched. My mother won’t believe that I’m depressed, let alone something like this. If you have any suggestions of what I should do- please help.