my relatives openly laugh and gloat at me that no one cares about me. how do they think that makes me feel. its very painful to be the joke of s*** to people who you should think care about you. I can’t forgive those words, when I had nothing they had girlfriends and boyfriends, nice houses and great paying jobs, overseas holidays and heaps of s**, friends and material objects. the poshy cars and the inground pools they had we never did.

and I never had those things. why? why do they keep getting all the hugs and kisses and hot s** with hot men and I don’t?

why and what is wrong with me?

all I got was child s***** abuse from a stinking old man and r*** by a married man I hated.

what the hell is going on with humanity and people?

why do people think its so funny to abuse and make fun of what I have been through. they have been doing this to me all my life. and I am sick of it.