I didn’t know how to categorize this because there are so many confessions: I worry I might not be straight and how my family would react (we’re super close but my parent isn’t super open about this kind of stuff; pretty old school); I watch adult videos online -with my family feet away – always worrying I’ll get caught; I feel unbelievably guilty each and every time I “finish” and then feel like a failure when I talk myself into doing it again after promising myself I wouldn’t; I’m scared about how often s** is on my mind as well as weird random (occasionally dark/mean thoughts I have about other people). I’m scared of pretty much everything (life, myself, etc,) and I just want to be innocent again and normal and somehow fixed to before I was so aware.