Something is wrong with me. I want to have a baby with my husband, but for some reason my body won’t let us. We have no problem making babies but keeping them is a different story. My ob/gyn tells us that this is normal and that eventually we will have our baby, but its gotten to the point that anytime i have that positive test we just don’t care anymore. I blame myself for our inability, but anytime I tell him so he shuts down and tells me how wrong I am. Each day I feel more and more like this is my own fault. The guilt is eating away at me and I can’t tell my husband because I already know what he is going to say. I am afraid that one day he’ll leave me for someone who can give him the family he wanted.