I unconsciously always made a line to never get attract to girl too much.
Now I meet a very sweet girl that to sweet to be true in the some group chat
I have mixed feeling between don’t want to fall to her and want make her mine and protect her that I always try to hide it.
Her friend and cousin suddenly told me that she have interest in me, made the other feeling is not balanced anymore.

Deep down I can’t move on with my old crush because she is my best friend and my feelings destroy our relation(it’s not like I still like my old crush it’s just trauma that I break our group friends)
And other things, I just graduate have nothing yet and still jobless, while she live at other country with her parent support her, and I feel not good enough for her