I want to like somebody in that way but I’m afraid of it ruining our friendships not only with them but with the people around me. I’m afraid of putting myself out there to even have a glimpse of the bare fruit of love but there are only walls I build keeping me away. My heart yearns for it but gets too nervous around every person and makes hard for me to build close relationships. Will this ever go away? Will I actually be alone for the rest of my life? Will anyone notice my cries and want to get to know me better? Will anyone see me that way? Am I not good enough.