I still feel deep guilt and curiosity how my cat died when I left her at the vets. I really wanted to be there for her but the more I was there the more she got upset when she seen me upset. I just pray they did what they said and she died in her sleep. I hope I can trust them. I had fears that she died worse but when I picked up her body she looked very peaceful. I pray her spirit stays with me where she belongs. I still miss her so much. we shared so much in almost 20 years together. I will never stop loving her or praising her name. she was the greatest cat that ever lived. I loved her so much. as much as I would love a child. she was my child. the pain is still there for me.