I don’t know what to do.. Like, I’m a straight female, but the past few weeks, I’ll be hanging out with my friends and I’ll start having weird s***** fantasies with them.. And lately, I’ve been questioning my s********. I have a boyfriend of 9 months and 2 days, and he doesn’t know about these feelings. I’m scared. I’m in no way at all against the right to be with the same gender. I’ve always supported it, ALWAYS. But, now I’m questioning my own. And it’s scaring me only because I don’t know how to tell people. I needed to get it off of my chest, and the only person I trust to tell is my second mom (aunt), so I told her today. She said that even though she is Christian, she is not against gay rights at all. And we sorta talked about it a little. She said that she was in my corner, and she would love me either way. But in today’s society, not everybody is as welcoming and kind as she. And if it is true, that I am bisexual or I turn lesbian or something, I won’t be able to tell anyone. I don’t have that much courage, I’m not that strong.. at all. I’m confused and afraid. Afraid of the outcome. Afraid of the comments, of the people who will judge, the threats, everything. I’m not strong. I won’t have enough strength to go on, I will end up killing myself. The thought of being judged is terrifying to me. I hurt. My heart hurts. I’m so confused… I don’t like this feeling. Not the feeling of possibly being gay, I guess I wouldn’t mind that at all, but the feeling of being rejected by society. The thought of knowing that there WILL be people out there to instantly judge me for something I can’t control.. I’ve never questioned my s******** THIS much, and it’s scary. I just want to breakdown and cry..