The only person i’ve ever loved died a few years back and he made me promise him that I would stop hurting myself and that I wouldn’t kill myself, but lately i’ve just been getting more and more depressed and the anniversary of his death (which is on my birthday) is coming up making it even worse and I can’t help but think about ending it all, but then I feel guilty because of the promise I made him. The guilt making me feel even worse and fall even more into depression.