Sometimes I’m so happy I don’t know what to do with myself and sometimes I can’t feel a thing, yet I continue to carry a smile and lively personality. No, I am not depressed. I have an AP test this week and I am most likely going to fail it. High school isn’t as easy as you think. Real world has real responsibilities, yeah yeah. I heard it before, but I’m thinking about right now. I don’t even know what I’m typing. I just felt like saying something. I wish I could fly. I’d go somewhere isolated and just lay down and look at the sky and not worry about a thing. Life is wonderful, but I feel myself growing sad because I know this is just a part of my life, and it will not always remain this way. I’ve stopped talking to many of the people whom I once considered to be my best friends. I now have friends, friends who I can rely on. Friends who are always there for me when I need them, yet I don’t tell them everything. In fact, nobody knows everything about me. I know this is a good thing, but then again, I feel a little sad without a best friend like this. In the end, I know that someone knowing everything about me would result in chaos. I need to study for this AP test, but I don’t. I feel like failing is inevitable. I want to succeed. I want to be very succcessful. I thrive on the feeling of success. I longe to feel a new sense of pride, or accomplish another goal I have set for myself. This summer will be a busy one. I wil be graduating from high school before I know it. This summer will consist of the following:
-Getting my permit
-Finding a job
-Studying for SATs/ACTs
-Working out
-Improving my talent
**and looking into college and career choices.
The last one terrifies me. I don’t know what to think sometimes.
Good Night.
-IamXVI