I don’t know why, but I enjoy marks on my skin. I would never cut myself or anything, but I sometimes whip myself with a cord or something for the sting and the pretty red mark it leaves. I also like bruises. A friend of mine bit me because I told her to and it left a large bruise on my arm. I have quite pale skin, so when there’s a mark it really shows up and I love the look of it, love the tenderness of a bruised area. It’s somewhat s*****, but not just that. I know that pain for s***** gratification isn’t that unusual, but for a good, non s******* active christian girl like me, I feel a little ashamed that certain thoughts excite me . Let’s hope my future husband isn’t opposed to tying me up and punishing me a bit. hehehe