Sometimes I keep thinking about the people i really hate… That if i would get a chance to take revenge on them i will do it for sure… I want to beat the hell out of them and make them cry like they made me cry. I was seven years old one the boy of the same class kept bullying me… Calling me black and teasing me… He used to throw the chalk duster on me and used to make false complaint about me to the teachers… It continued till we went to 6th standard… Means i turned into 11 years old… And i was really different from the person i was now… I was really shy… And used to get really embarrassed… That even if with all those humiliation and insults with that boy I never told this to my parents… I think i was really stupid as a child i must have told this about it to my parents… Instead i thought my parents will feel hurt if i will tell themi am hurt… I don’t know why but i think childleshly i tried to act strong… That boy used to point out the smallest things about me and used to insult me in front of his friends and in the absence of teachers… I remember once i was doing my maths in class he snatched my compass and scard me by trying to prick me with its needle…. I had a mole on my upper lips… And i was insecure about it thinking it was ugly… And one day he shouted at ne saying I will smack you and your all moles will fell down… I felt terribly embarrassed…. It is the incident of 6th standard… He was playing with the ply aur a broken ply of a desk by putting it under my dest and hitting it with his feet and that ply hit my knees… And I started crying… And our class president complained it to one of our teacher… In our country it is not illegal to smack or beat the school kids if they are wrong…
And that teacher was known as the most gentle in all our teacher… But that day she beated the hell out of him…. And after that he stopped bullying me. In standard 8th when i turned 13 I was just casually talking to one of a boy that if boys get piercing… That boy who used to bully me had ears piercing when he was young… So i told my class mate that he had piercing on his ears when he was young… And that boy went to him asking if what i said is true… That bully guy got mad and screamed saying “hey black b**** shut the f*** up”…. I didn’t said those things in an insulting way buthe got furious… And that jerk who went to ask him that started laughing at me… And i ignored them but i was humiliated.
Although he was not white but our country is in southern asia… And still those people who have lighter skin colors some of them bullies other of the darker skin and he was one of those kind of people…. When we graduated to 10th standard and i turned 15… I had a crush on one of the most intellingent boy in our school… He was friend of that bully…. But he was kind and completely different from his jerk friend and he was never their with him when he bullied me… I think that is why in out of all his friend i only liked him. But i stopped liking him after an incident… We were all the science lab… And that jerk was in the opposite side of my table and the guy i had a crush on him was with him… My friend whispered in my ears that the guy i had a crush on is teasing that jerk asking him to talk to me for a date… And i got furious. And when our school ended i went to the guy i had a crush on and asked him about the rubbish he was talking out to that jerk… He apologised to me and said he was hust joking….
Well actually he was teasing that jerk because he knew that he hates me and i hated him even more… After 10 standard we finally seperated to other class… But now i am 23… And i feel i must have taken action against him by telling my parents but i was so foolish… Nothing can be done now i know but i have a grudge on him…. And i can never fogive and forget him for all those humiliation and insultes… And whenever i remember those insults… I strongly wish no happiness for him forever…
Sorry formy bad english… I am a non english