I blocked all my friends on every social media i have, i have lost in contact with them for about 2 weeks now, i feel relieved… but lonely. Whenever i chat with them i was always anxious, even though they’re my friend i always, ALWAYS, Feel like they’re judging me, my posts, how i dress, how i do things. I’m a coward i know. I love them but anxiety keeps getting in the way, my ED makes it even worse. I can’t be in control when im with them. I hate being left alone but i was the one who left them, i didn’t even say why i did that or at least a good bye, just blocked them. Benedict, a gay friend of mine, whenever i talk to him about gay stuff, i always feel he’s uncomfortable, like he’s getting annoyed, ik he’s annoyed at me. I didn’t mean to but i just have that power where whenever im with someone they’ll get annoyed for the first 5 seconds. He doesn’t like me cause im not popular, he keeps asking how are these gurls popular etc. He always tries to hangout with popular ones, i feel left out, i told him everything, i trusted him, i was really attached to him, he’s my best friend but i think what i did was for the best, i feel so f****** dumb whenever i keep chatting him. So 2 weeks ago i end it. Blocked him from everything. Before you say im overreacting, i did this for myself, it helped a lot, the weight on my shoulders were gone, i just wanna say to him thank you for everything.