What to do????? I am confused.!!!

I am 18 years old girl.i dont know what my destiny want from me,confused totally.
It was my first love .In 2013 my relation started it work 2 years.. but after that i broke up becoz uske parent chahte the uski shadi ho jaye..vo mere se 6 year bada hai.. mene use break up to kar lia kyu k me bachi thi tk.. child marriage is not allowed. uski shadi hogyi.. but humra yaa shayd mera pyar usske liye kabhi khatm nhi huwa.. hum uske shadi keh 1 saal bad mile.. muje pata chla keh usne jisse shadi ki hai vo bhut kharb ladki h.. uske family mein bhut problems hogy h us ladki keh vajh se… i feel guilty becoz mene usse break up kia n usne gusse me haa kr diaa shadi k lia..
vo b mujse pyar krta h abhi bhi.. par vo shadi shudha hai.. abhi vo usse divorce krna chahta hai. N hum abhi b relation ship mein hai .i love him .and He love me too. but what to do.. N it is a long distance relationship. help me.