I feel this pain when ever im alone and its a feeling of being alone and it hurts in the heart which i know is just a trick played by my brain with my strong imagination. But the pain is in terms real and i feel it and i know it dosent help to think of those i see as attractive and the problem is i know the feelings are not mutual and i have considered opening up to someone but the only person i know i feel i can tell i have already bothered her to much and im not sure if i could tell her this. The girl i think of and she is one of few i think of is one who kind of showed me that i was welcomed into a group i was never sure i was in or not. Thats why i have this crazy crush and another i think is funny and shes friendly and i see no flaws and her like another they both have alot of mutual friends with me. I see my self as pathetic because of this i see myself as sad and a loser. These feelings i cannot shake. I might share more one day but i must end this one now.