.. I think I’m in love with a guy that will never feel the same way about me. I’ve known that I cared about him for awhile. He plays with my heart. We hang out every once in a while and sometimes we have s**, but sometimes we just cuddle or talk. But I know he is still in love with his ex girlfriend. They were together for a long time, and I don’t know if he knows that I know about her but I feel like when he is with me he is just trying to get her out of his head.. It’s been upsetting me. I’ve cared about him for so long. I think he knows how I feel about him, and he uses it to his advantage. At times I feel like he just uses me to make his ex jealous. I’m tired of feeling like I’m being used. I just want him to see how much I care about him and I want him to realize that if two people really care about each other, they don’t try to make the other jealous. Games are immature, and if you play them, that means you are purposely trying to hurt someone.. that is not love.. And it seems like that is all that him and his ex have. I just want him to feel the same feelings towards me as I do when I’m with him.. I’m just hurting myself aren’t I? I’ve been told to get over it. I’ve been told that he’s an a** hole. I just can’t get over it. I see something different in him. He’s a jerk, but there’s good. He’s kind of weird but that’s why I like him. He’s just interesting to me. I wish he could feel this way about me.. But he won’t, and I will probably always feel this way deep down. Forever hurting. Waiting. Wishing..