I feel so lost, and I’m just not sure where to turn. Everybody tells me it’s just a phase, that I’ll outgrow it, but I don’t know. I don’t believe what I used to, im falling apart because of it, I can’t sleep, I just always feel so tired, I suffer from depression and mild anxiety, possibly bipolar. I just don’t know if I can handle this any longer. What’s even the point. I just want to be noticed and loved by somebody. Is there so much harm in that? I wish I was older, I feel so much older than 13. I know I have a long life ahead of me, but if it’s a long life full of pain and suffering like it is right now, I don’t want to live. I’m supposed to be a Christian, but if God really loved us, why would I want to kill myself?