For years, my parents have treated me horribly, calling me stupid, accusing me of being possessed by demons, never accepting anything about me or any of my hobbies, threatening to put me in jail , threatening to take me to a mental institution, hitting and beating me, threatening to not let me eat and drink, insulting the things I like, insulting my friends, saying that I don’t do enough for them, saying that I’m selfish because I have hobbies that they don’t like and because I dress for myself, blaming me for not having many friends, saying that the only reason they didn’t put me up for adoption is because no one else would put up with me, etc. Everytime I tried to tell anyone about this they always told me that I deserved it. Today my parents tried to beat me, but I left home before they could. I don’t know what to do now.I have no money, no food, no water, and all my possessions besides my phone are at home. I’ve had murderous desires and fantasized about killing and torturing for as long as I can remember, which is part of the reason why my parents hate me. I wasn’t planning on going through with murdering and torturing people, I just like fantasizing about violence. I don’t like being around people because I know that they’re going to hate me, but I also hate the feeling of loneliness. I would like socializing if people didn’t despise me. I’ve always been scared to tell the police about how my parents have been treating me because I know they would arrest me. I don’t know what to do right now. The world just isn’t meant for people like me.