I am 36 and a virgin. I’ve never even had a boyfriend or been on a real date. I have friends but I’m an introvert at heart. Occasionally I go out with friends, I work for a school system, I’m not a bad looking woman. A little overweight but I still get my share of flirtatious comments from random guys…..but I guess that’s not the point. The point is I’ve always felt awkward. I had a childhood chronic illness that left me out of school for 3 years (from 8th grade to 10th). I started school back as a junior in high school after being home schooled while in and out of the hospital. I never felt comfortable talking to boys. Which grew into not feeling comfortable talking to men. I also had many operations and procedures that left me with orthopedic problems and many many scars and bruises. My face, neck, and from the knees down are the only areas untouched by a scalpel or needles. So I’m very insecure about my body. That’s probably most likely why I shy away from guys. The only time I feel social with men is if I’ve been drinking. I feel really torn because deep down I’ve Lways wanted a husband and kids. But now I’m just plain embarrassed to admit to any man that I’ve never even dated a guy before, let alone had s**. I’ve only told my very best friend. No one else really knows. I feel so awkward and like a total outcast when other women are talking about thier s** lives and relationship issues and I can’t relate at all…..I’ve lied about it even. I feel horrible. Especially since I’m going to be not working over the summer until September. I’m drifting onto depression. Fast.