i am asking for forgiveness in everything family, friends, and co-workers they are some things I do not understand and some of them are not aware of what is really going on with me. I have lied to some people not only to cover my b*** also to keep drama free. I no know that all things are not what they seem because i am starting to get depressed and worry about things as well. I may not know what to say at times and do what i need to do at times as well. People do underestimate my ability to do things and to acknowledge things as well. I admit I do have an attitude towards those who seem to expect things from my mom and dad because they are just hurting them financially and hear I am working part time paying my bills and i get told that I do not deserve help at all. I admit I am 41 and yes i do live at home with my parents and I do not drive I panic and it just getting old when no one is here to help them but I and i can not help them as much as I want too. my boyfriend and I are good but i am dealing with some doubts with him I am not sure what to do or how to handle it please help me figure out what I need to do please pray for me.