I hooked up with one of my childhood friends and we are keeping it a secret from everyone because we go to church together and his mother is my mentor and if people knew things would get real awkward real quick. On the plus and very twisted side is that neither of us have feelings about it afterward and we still hang out like nothing happened and have even talked about how if it were to happen again we would be okay with it. We just enjoy each other’s company physically and emotionally. He told me that I am one of the most important people in his life. He is one of mine as well but we are perfectly content just being close friends.
I know this is a terribly dysfunctional relationship to have with someone but we seem to get along fine and we both enjoy the company but I would never be okay with anyone I care about doing the same thing, I would actually be very concerned for them so I have told no one and I probably never will. But it feels like I am being deceitful and I just have no idea where to go from here 🙁