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I’m a Christian introvert who doesn’t want relationships. You see, the Christian faith is all about relationships and unconditional love. This was all modeled by Jesus himself. My issue is Not with Him. I believe everything He said is right and true. My problem is that the core of the Christian faith is “Love”. Its the greatest commandment he gave and I just realized that after 20 years as a Christian, I’m never going to Love people. To me, people are just needy, emotional black wholes ready to s*** the very life force out of me. Everyone wants something! Plus, nothing scares me more than being totally “transparent” with others. I don’t really want anyone knowing by deepest self. To be honest, I don’t even want to know my deepest self much less being vulnerable to others. But that’s exactly what the faith requires. I know beyond the shadow of a doubt that Jesus is God, im not here to debate that, what I’m saying is that I cant seem ( I don’t even want to want to change) live out this part. So it seems like im the bankerupt noise symbols the bible talks about.

New Confession

I have never been able to keep a relationship because of having a m i c r o p e n i s. Barely a nub flaccid and barely three inches on my best day. I sincerely do not blame women for the s***** rejection at all. When i do date anyone long enough for the potential for it to become s***** i tell them up front and most women appreciate it. A couple of women have asked to see it because they are curious and cant beliieve a p e n i s can be so small. I am so grateful to one of those women because she wanted to see it erect as well and helped me m*********. She even asked to take it in her mouth simply to see what it was like to not choke or gag. She was shocked when she saw how massively i ejaculated and ezpressed sincere sympathy when she told me afterwards it must drive me crazy to have that much in me all the time and said after that the really strange part was how my tiny p e n i s is so out of proportion to how large my t e s t i c l e s are. We ended up becoming long term friends and have coffee or lunch or dinner platonic dates almost every week. One dinner date she seemed off and after having a strong drink asked if she could watch me again. I was thrilled of course. I was laying on my couch recovering and she went to get somethiing to help me clean up and asked if i trusted her. She made me swear to not over think what she was about to do and then gave me a long slow passionate time in her mouth. After we caught our breath she told me that as much as she loved the concept of givilng b l o wj o b s it was not enjoyable becsuse of the size of most men. She has never had interest in anything else and no contact with her body at all but every few months she asks and gives that to me. She is a sincere friend, she told me long ago thar my small size would be a no go for her, but she introduced me to someone she knew who was a part time e***** as a side gig and i pay that woman a fair amount of money to simply sit clothed and watch me m*********.

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I have never been able to keep a relationship because of having a m i c r o p e n i s. Barely a nub flaccid and barely three inches on my best day. I sincerely do not blame women for the s***** rejection at all. When i do date anyone long enough for the potential for it to become s***** i tell them up front and most women appreciate it. A couple of women have asked to see it because they are curious and cant beliieve a p e n i s can be so small. I am so grateful to one of those women because she wanted to see it erect as well and helped me m*********. She even asked to take it in her mouth simply to see what it was like to not choke or gag. She was shocked when she saw how massively i ejaculated and ezpressed sincere sympathy when she told me afterwards it must drive me crazy to have that much in me all the time and said after that the really strange part was how my tiny p e n i s is so out of proportion to how large my t e s t i c l e s are. We ended up becoming long term friends and have coffee or lunch or dinner platonic dates almost every week. One dinner date she seemed off and after having a strong drink asked if she could watch me again. I was thrilled of course. I was laying on my couch recovering and she went to get somethiing to help me clean up and asked if i trusted her. She made me swear to not over think what she was about to do and then gave me a long slow passionate time in her mouth. After we caught our breath she told me that as much as she loved the concept of givilng b l o wj o b s it was not enjoyable becsuse of the size of most men. She has never had interest in anything else and no contact with her body at all but every few months she asks and gives that to me. She is a sincere friend, she told me long ago thar my small size would be a no go for her, but she introduced me to someone she knew who was a part time e***** as a side gig and i pay that woman a fair amount of money to simply sit clothed and watch me m*********.