I feel so horrible, so sad, I want to die. I am scared of my life. I hate where I am, and I’m scared of what will happen in the future that I’ve chosen. I’m being suspicious of my boyfriend tonight, and I really hope there isn’t a reason for me to be. I can’t stop crying and all I want right now is to not be here or anywhere. I don’t really want to die, I just don’t want to live any more. I feel like that a lot, I take antidepressants and they help a lot of the time but not today. I just feel if I had the choice right now to keep living my life however it turns out or to just be finished with it right now. I would take the second choice.