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I’m fascinated by the idea of love. It sounds incredibly stupid and frankly a little immature to be so interested in it, but I can’t help it. I was in love once, but needless to say, that ended. I was young (still young, but not as young) and it was a good learning experience. I learned about compromise, pain, and forgiveness….mostly forgiveness. It was a good relationship with a very bad end.
Anyway, it took me an entire year to fully recover from it, yes it was that bad. It took several more months for me to be even slightly tolerant of the idea of love again. So now I just crave it. I want that again, but better and with a different person. I want to feel that way about a person. I used to just get pissed off when I saw couples, but now I get a nice feeling when I see them and I find myself hoping that all of them will work out even though I know not everything does. I wish there was someone I was even interested in, but there’s not. Not an ex or someone out of my league or anything. Just…nothing. Maybe I got hurt too bad and now I just can’t feel that way anymore…but I want to so much. It’s been so long since I have loved or felt loved. It’s been so long since s** meant something to me. It feels like it’s been forever since I lit up just because of someones presence or been genuinely excited to see a boy. I’ve had short flings with people, but nothing as strong or as meaningful as that one relationship. I’m about to enter a new chapter in my life and I hope things will change…my environment will be completely different as will my social group. Everything is going to change very soon. I’m not basing my decisions on the hope that I’ll find someone, but I do hope someone comes along in the process. If it happens, I’ll be happy, and if it doesn’t then I’ll get a cat and still be happy.

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I have never been able to keep a relationship because of having a m i c r o p e n i s. Barely a nub flaccid and barely three inches on my best day. I sincerely do not blame women for the s***** rejection at all. When i do date anyone long enough for the potential for it to become s***** i tell them up front and most women appreciate it. A couple of women have asked to see it because they are curious and cant beliieve a p e n i s can be so small. I am so grateful to one of those women because she wanted to see it erect as well and helped me m*********. She even asked to take it in her mouth simply to see what it was like to not choke or gag. She was shocked when she saw how massively i ejaculated and ezpressed sincere sympathy when she told me afterwards it must drive me crazy to have that much in me all the time and said after that the really strange part was how my tiny p e n i s is so out of proportion to how large my t e s t i c l e s are. We ended up becoming long term friends and have coffee or lunch or dinner platonic dates almost every week. One dinner date she seemed off and after having a strong drink asked if she could watch me again. I was thrilled of course. I was laying on my couch recovering and she went to get somethiing to help me clean up and asked if i trusted her. She made me swear to not over think what she was about to do and then gave me a long slow passionate time in her mouth. After we caught our breath she told me that as much as she loved the concept of givilng b l o wj o b s it was not enjoyable becsuse of the size of most men. She has never had interest in anything else and no contact with her body at all but every few months she asks and gives that to me. She is a sincere friend, she told me long ago thar my small size would be a no go for her, but she introduced me to someone she knew who was a part time e***** as a side gig and i pay that woman a fair amount of money to simply sit clothed and watch me m*********.

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