I am not in love with my boyfriend. Three and a half years. He’s got a job close to me his family is moving away and it will be us together. I am not in love with him. I fantasise about a love that sets me on fire and ignites passion and desire and excitement. I feel that way about s guy who I worked with a year ago. I haven’t seen him in 8 months and I can’t stop thinking about him I even dreamt of him last night. I Only worked with him on a few occasions but they were memorable. I feel like I am waiting for a sign to break up with my boyfriend but all I can think about is where will my boyfriend live were will he go he relies on me so much and I don’t know what to do. And then I don’t want to be alone either. But the desire to be in love is building and building each day. I don’t know how much longer I can stay with him