I don’t know if I’m a boy or a girl. I have a female body, and sometimes I’m even happy with that. But every year I end up feeling more and more like I’m a man. Dressing up and looking pretty makes me feel shameful, like I’m hiding. All I want is my brother to call me brother, to be addressed like a man, to look like a man, and to be allowed to act like a man. I’m scared of admitting this to my family, but I’m terrified of picturing myself as a woman later in life.