I have always been what some would call “Different” sure everyone is different in their own way (which is great). But I was the different that people didn’t like.
-Back story-
If you look at my school pictures since kinder-garden to now, all the girls would be wearing pink frilly dresses, and the boys would be in dress shirts. But i did not fit into any of those categories. This being so, girls never liked me and that’s what drawed me to think that i was never supposed to be born, i was only in the third grade when i came to that conclusion.
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I donated most of my hair to children with cancer over the summer. When i got back to school, everyone assumed i did it because i was transitioning to become a male (nothing wrong with that but i was harassed with this) or that i was a lesbian (again nothing wrong with homosexuality, people in my school are just d*** heads) And for people who had just met me have had the impression that i am in fact a boy. Which makes me question how ignorant do you have to be to not be able to tell the two genders apart.
Anyways, I felt the audacity to dress more “slutty” so people would be able to tell who i am. I also feel the audacity to grow my hair out. Doing this, i got the new nick name, the “W****”
I am a quarter into my school year but i already feel unwelcomed at this new school.
I already fell back into bad habits (Bulimia/ Cutting)
My first report card had my dad taken back because i went from a Straight A to an average of C’s and D’s.
my two friends have no idea about all this and they also don’t know that i don’t want to be alive anymore. Not that they would care that much anyway
I feel very alone in this world full of people.
I don’t know what to do any more.

Sorry for the over used parentheses