I’m not sure what to do relationship wise. I’m a guy, at that age where I’m still pretty young but a few years till 30, and I think I might be kinda broken inside. Over the past 10 years I’ve had PLENTY of relationships, the kind that makes people judge you the wrong way if they ever found out. Every single time I’m with a new girl I always try for the long haul, but I end up breaking up with them for various reasons. It doesn’t help that a majority of them are usually younger than me and are at the, “Let’s party IDGAF,” stage. I don’t make it a thing to only date younger girls, it just happens.

Hell, I’ve never even asked a woman out before, it’s always them that make the first move. But lately, I’ve been having moments where I’ll be alone and it feels like I’m going to break down. Sometimes it’s enough to make me cry for a couple of minutes, other times its like a mellow depression. I know it in my heart that I’ll eventually meet the right one, one who I will give it my all like she will give me hers, but its the time leading up to her thats tough.

I just wish that I’ve never been with the others, the one’s who broke my heart like I break theirs, the one’s who made me distrust and doubt, the ones who made me see them in my dreams. When will I find the one who will tear them all away?