I play games with people and I don't mean to. I don't feel badly for it either, even though I probably should. I just want to have friends, or at least

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I play games with people and I don’t mean to. I don’t feel badly for it either, even though I probably should. I just want to have friends, or at least people I can trust but it seems the only way to do that is to create a facade.

If they had any idea that I’m simply feigning interest and appearing to be polite, I know they wouldn’t want anything to do with me….which is why I keep doing it.

So now, what they see me as is a complete lie. I would rather them know who I am instead of constantly having to remind myself of who truly knows me and who doesn’t, simply because it is a hassle to try and remember who cares and who doesn’t.

I should have been honest to start with and just remained alone.

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I fucked up my life i wish i never ended up the way i am its all my fault i keep trying to find excuses but there’s people in situations worse than me that still studied and tried doing well while i was just a lil stupid b**** all throughout school. I’m only 17 now but there’s no hope all bc i didn’t study at 14, i hate romania i wish my whole life wasn’t dedicated to how well i did at 14. But it’s also my fault even tho i got into a s***** highschool i could’ve at least studied and not missed so many days but now it’s over i wanted to transfer to other schools but no school will accept me and that’s profesionala schools that are basically for dumb people that didn’t have a good grade in the 8th grade national exam and just do practice so they won’t go to university after highschool just to a job, so let alone a
normal high school accepting me. I wanted to get better but nvm apparently i can’t, At 14 i didn’t care bc i thought i was gna endmyself at 20 and now i can’t change anything

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