A few years ago, i woke up with my girlfriend sucking my c***, it was amazing. i pretended to stay asleep at tried to give her a mouth full of my c** because despite liking the taste, and all the other k**** fucked up s*** she let me do to her, she didn’t like the c****** in her mouth. And i really wanted to c** in her mouth.

Then i cant remember why, but she stopped, i woke up and we carryed on our k**** morning, untill i had her in the corner, almost forcing my c*** in her mouth. (it was still fun for her at this point) When i felt the urge to just force it deep deep into her throat, hold her down and f*** her head into the corner untill i filled her up.
I gave it a little go but i know she wasn’t having it so i stopped.

My problem is to this day, half of me feels bad about what i tried to do, the other half wishes i didn’t stop and thinks about it while i w*** alot.

can people give me thoughts on this? male and female perspective please, what would guys have done?
And girls, if your as k**** as i described her, do you think there would be any enjoyment in that for you? please talk to me and put my mind at peace