It’s been almost a year, I still love you, and I still hurt from what you did to us, my bed has felt empty every night since you’ve been gone. I miss our dog at the foot of the bed, I miss coffee in the mornings while staring at your face through your vanity mirror as you get ready every morning. I miss Wednesday nights at the garden and build you and your mom fires, I miss how your mom would freak out over finn drool. I miss everything. I’ve tried this whole year to forget, stop caring, move on and I can’t. I can’t date other girls, I can’t trust them as friends, I’m so miserable and lonely, I’m outgoing and have friends, but I hate everything and everyone. Life doesn’t mean s*** without you, you hurt me so f****** bad and it’s like I’m never going to recover. I miss you do much, I wish I was dead. F***. Shelby you really were as bad as you said you were, I should have listened when you told me you’re fucked up , if I woulda known you destroy people for fun and profit I would have just fucked you and never called you again.