All my life, I’ve been smiling through my days, inside I feel like a million wounds. They say to act like you’re happy and one day, you’ll finally give in to your actings… I don’t believe that that type of technique work. It pains me to see such bright young kids and kind adults go through such pain with cancer. I just wish that I can just take their place instead, never have I felt satisfied with anything and times just get tougher as I grow older. Is this what depression feels like? Thinking about a off button every single day but not being able to press it? I feel completely alone in my life even with those who care… I’m selfish really, selfish to think of only my problems, don’t really know what to say, just something on my mind, sorry.